(there are lots of details i will not get into that are horrifying, but they are about other people I cannot speak for) The hospital finally told me "we cannot keep someone who is medically healthy just because they are drunk"

I had been grieving stacy for almost a year at this point. Thinking my best friend is dying. She had called me crying because she might have leukemia. She never had even the threat or possibility of leukemia.

What she was actually doing was getting unbelievably drunk and calling people for "help" because she is so scared of her mysterious chronic illness that would not show up on ANY blood test. She had people physically come to her home to take care of her and comfort her.

While she was drunk and I did not know, she called me romantic names that made me uncomfortable but I let it go because i thought "she has severe anemia she does not know what is happening. her brain is starving for oxygen". She touched me in ways I did not like.

I was not the only person she lied to about her health. She lied to all of you as well. And it has been ripping me apart as I do not know what the right answer to all of this is. I just want it to go away and I don't know how to make it stop.

She gaslit someone close to her for the entirety of their relationship. I was going to take her to disney world and PAY FOR EVERYTHING AND RENT A WHEELCHAIR AND PUSH HER AROUND IN IT BECAUSE I THOUGHT MY BEST FRIEND WAS DYING

I know it sounds so stupid to get tricked so hard. But she had everyone in her life in a series of manipulations so complex that my head spins. She even set it up so I could not question is by crying that her family keeps asking her if she was just drinking and not sick.

She made sure no one talked to each other too much. She isolated one person to believe she could just drunk alcohol whenever she wanted. She cannot. I'm outing her now that stacy is an alcoholic. I don't know if that is right but obviously I wont keep this secret anymore.

Stacy has a lot more issues than alcoholism. Alcoholism does not make you have a multi-year scam against your own closest people. It does not make you trick your friends into physical contact they do not want. It does not make you pretend to be sick for a year.

There is A LOT MORE that she did. But those are not my stories to tell so I won't. I will say that looking back at the things she said to the fanbase after sending her to the hospital. Saying how the IVs gave her bruises because of the anemia she did not have.

It hurts so deeply that she found so much pleasure in the attention I gave her when I was so scared. That I was just a thing to use and manipulate to make her feel better.

I was sending her to the hospital. People in her life were scared for her. I called her family and begged them for help. I FOUGHT them and YELLED at them to help and to stop asking me if she was drinking or doing drugs. Because she had manipulated me so hard.

If she had just at any point told me she fell off the wagon I would have helped her. But instead, she chose to use her "sickness" to get what she wanted from people. That is not an addiction that is Narcicism or some kind of something I do not know.

I have helped her so much over the last 13 years. Gave her a home when she had none. Fed her when she had no food. Gave her money when she was broke. Bought her things she could not afford. Let her claim credit for things that I did just to help her feel better.

The fucked up thing is I've been around her for so long I keep questioning if this is even a big deal. And the reactions i get from my personal friends, and now on here, I see I am valid in feeling so horrible. I feel violated. I want to throw up sometimes remembering things.

Listen I know when she gets back she will say it is because of mental illness. Even say that "cancer is the same as alcoholism". I don't care. She was sober and lucid a lot. She even scolded me when I told her to talk about her anemia on stream and I had no idea why.

I was encouraging her to do so, so she could have more money since she was on "sick leave" from work. Now i realize she knew she was getting over her head with the lie, and to take money on that lie would make it a bigger issue.

When we were living together, she told someone who came over a lot that she had to hide alcohol from me and hide her drinking from me, because I HAVE THE PROBLEM!? She made others think i was the alcoholic so that she could drink with them in her room. Made people treat me weird