So for starters, a lot of the dead air was mostly due to dealing with the Tyler Wilson situation from before (i.e, him trying to spread the accusation that I'm a pedophile, death threats, etc). Thanks to the efforts of a number of people, he seems to have been dealt with for--

--the time being. Whether or not that manchild STAYS gone, it remains to be seen. But for now, it doesn't seem like he'll be showing his balding face on Twitter or anywhere else again. Even still, it was not fun having to cope with all that.

Secondly, I've mostly opted to not talk about this, but as of late, my family life has been in a bit of disarray. Without giving full details, my sister's ex-boyfriend essentially turned out to be a waste of oxygen, went nutso, and now her two kids are without a father.

Thusly, said kids are left here with my folks and I a lot of the time. And let me tell you, having to deal with all the noise they make when I'm still trying to get my animating priorities and whatnot sorted out is not fun. At all. Now, mind you, we still take care--

--of the kids. Me mum loves them very much, and we wouldn't dare leave them without a family. But obviously, with them being here so often, it's been quite taxing on us all, and with my mum AND sister working respective jobs on top of having to watch these kids--

--it doesn't quite seem like these arrangements are gonna change any time soon. So again, it's been real tricky. And then, staying on the subject of family, my father recently ended up in the hospital. Without going into detail, he was not okay going in.

He's doing better now after some tests, and he's more coherent and all, but obviously, my mum and I were, and still are, very worried. Having lost my grandmum some time ago, I was kind of fearing the worst, but I'm at least relieved he's okay now, for the most part.

Then lastly, most recently, a situation among myself and several friends of mine just kind of boiled over because of my own stupid and selfish actions. And I must stress, it was MY fault that said situation even reached the point that it did. No one else's.

So now, I've a lot of work to do to attempt to rectify these actions of mine. As much as I've tried to apologize to the ones I wronged, I know at this point actions speak louder than words. So I'm aiming to try and mend things, but I know it's going to be a long road.

So. Yeah. that's about all I wanted to say, and that's a lot of why I've been so sporadic with my online presence. Life and other things have been systematically kicking me in the arse, and I've been struggling to really keep it all together.

I know that talking about one's personal life on the Internet is like a double-edged sword in most cases, but again, you all at least deserve to know a little of what's going on just because there's a whole host of things happening, as I've described.

To clarify; I'm not going anywhere. I'm not dropping off with SMG4 or Ze Pyromancers, or even my own channel. I'm just very much not in a good headspace right now, and I'm trying to figure out just how to balance everything and keep myself together.

Sorry again for the long-ass thread. I'm probably going to turn in now. Thank you for listening.

@TIShadow6 Oh shadow, i can totally relate to that. I've been through the same thing (not the EXACT same thing of course). We all know u need time to process this & we're with you. You got this. I know you can overcome emotions. We're all here for you 😊😊